Yesterday I had a doozy of a day….my husband ended up picking me up almost an hour late after I got off work…and only because he is trying to get this new job and they had him moving equipment from another store like he HE-MAN but anyway picked up my kids and Taysion snapped at me and Sean, and we were both like WTF…his attitude is just outrageous…then i had to go to grocery store and still come home and cook dinner and found out my U-verse is off……SMH needless to say my nerves were shot and i just wanted to go to bed BUT I didnt get to work out Monday so I had to talk myself into doing 25 minutes of the T-25….I was exercising at like 9 at night but afterwards i felt so good about it….I was able to sleep and i woke up feeling much much better……I think I found my stress reliever
So I read my post yesterday and realized I’m feeling sorry for myself and I’m allowing things to defeat me. Everyone has issues, not just me. So from this day forward, I’m not posting anything sad and pitiful, I’m determined to reach my goal and I know that it will happen because I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN! Come on, ladies, we are strong, beautiful women, and when we put our minds to something, we make it happen. I’m not going another year with this excess weight and low self-esteem, so I’m putting on my big girl panties and I’m taking back my life. I’m a growh woman with responsiblities, no time to sit around and cry. I will be 35 lbs lighter by June 1. That is my goal and I will reach it.
I have no idea how much damage I’ve done. I’ve lost my motivation it seems and I think I’ve worked out maybe once and that was half assed. I purchased veggies and fruits but since I don’t sleep like I’m supposed to, I’m up all night and sometimes, I want bad stuff. I know I’ve eaten Taco Bell at least twice in addition to my Rally’s visit I told you guys about. I’m stuck in a cirle, these migraines are killing me and my joints hurt, I get down because I’m in pain, I can’t exercise because it hurts, and I eat because I’m down. Something has got to give, I can’t keep this up….(M)
Ok so I had a slip up on my diet I went out to a Mexican restaurant Friday with my sister and ate a chicken tostada and had a glass of Merlot, and while I was full very quickly I felt so guilty..because my diet required me to only eat soup for dinner for that day and i messed it up..lol then I made a pot roast on Sunday and I had less than 5 ounces of it but my weight yo-yo’d, the five pounds i lost went to like only 3..I feel defeated and its my fault you have to follow the diet as close as possible, but you also have to work out..I only worked out 1 day last week ..but I’m going to keep going..>I’m on week 3 of this diet and I promise to work out five days like I’m supposed to…its been hard….I was on my period last week and when I’m cramping I aint trying to exercise..lol, and all these issues keep popping up and its has been stressful….trying so hard not to eat..lol…..too determined especially when I measured myself and saw that I lost a couple inches off my waist….and my butt….so the weight aint moving as fast as i want it too, but the diet is not in vain
So the past few weeks have been extremely trying….So much stress and worry. i’m trying not to forget my mission, my focus, but it’s difficult. All I want to do is lay in bed. I try to remind myself that this will pass and things will get better, but convincing myself is getting more and more difficult, not to mention everyone else. I did lose 9 lbs, but not the way I wanted to. I have to find a way out of this funk, prayer helps, but I have to remember to leave it all in God’s hands and stop taking it back. Putting on a brave face is a full time job. Hoping to get back to my old happy cheerful self….soon
I haven’t been able to weigh myself yet, I go to the doctor yet again on Tuesday, hopefully I’ll have lost the five and then some. Are we setting another goal?
So i began this week happy…I’m down 5 pounds yeaaaaa…..I had closed my eyes when i got on the scale because i was afraid that the number hadn’t moved ……I got the girls and my boss at work getting ready to try the diet as well because it works and its nothing you cant do…..and Sean is helping me out now…he made me a turkey burger on whole grain wheat while he ate a hamburger with onion rings on it, french fries and more onion rings…smh lol I was so mad when they ordered food on Saturday and all i could eat was salad and soup that day BUT i did snatch two frenchfries and I took a bite of Taysions sandwich..lol
Internet is back! I haven’t weighed myself, I don’t have a scale. I’ve been doing really well though. I wanted chips really bad and needed an intervention but Dee suggested that I make that day my cheat day. I got a dollar bag of Doritos, a pint of ice cream and a Pepsi. The only thing I finished was the chips. I ended up throwing up half the pint of ice cream and half the Pepsi. I felt really good! I’ve been sticking to my smoothies every morning, my veggies for snacks and my salad with baked chicken for dinner. I’m really gonna try to exercise tomorrow, I’ve been having an extremely hard time with lupus lately. I’m not giving up, I’m super determined this time!
Yeaaa we are doing it right…even Jillian Michaels says to blog your weight, emotions, and goals…..
I’m so proud of me..I made it 5 days on this super shred diet..and I havent given in to temptation, or unhealthy foods yet….it’s been sooooo hard…but I did it….I have 3 more weeks to go but they say if you get thru the first week the others are a breeze…..and I have never ever followed a diet specifically like this before in my life so this is all new to me……I feel absolutely great…i think I may have lost a couple pounds already (can’t weigh myself until Monday).. but my pants i couldn’t button without dying because they squeezed my belly, now button with no problem they still tight in the thighs and butt area but baby I’ll take that for now…lol